I'm tired. Sleepy, yes, but more tired from argument and yelling. I'm tired of my family yelling at each other through me. It must be a generational thing--it has been going on for generations.
I am not a buffer zone--except that I am.
Please stop yelling at me when you want to yell at someone else. Sariah and Erica, this is NOT just pointed at you. Yes, that has been this morning, but other days it is someone else, and I feel like this has been my whole life. Oh, maybe because it has been going on that long. Enough. Stop. I love my family--every single one. Have your problems with each other if you so choose. I cannot stop it. But I'm not going to be in the middle any more. Yell at each other, ignore each other. Just know that I refuse [as always] to stop loving someone else, or to be mad at someone else just because you are. Sometimes it is easier to talk to some of the 5th & 6th cousins I've found doing genealogy--I guess because I am not as invested in all aspects of their lives.
So thats it. I'm done. If you're mad at someone else, fine, but it is your problem. I am not going to try to smooth it over. I love you anyway, and I love the other person too, but I will no longer be a go between. I just wish I could get ALL my family to read this! Unfortunately, that won't happen. I'm so tired!
