I just have to publically say thank you to Sariah, Lura and especially Julia for responding to my post about my inner turmoils and the pageant. I have written a note to last year's director to apologize for unintentional hurts, and that there were no intentional hurts. Interestingly, as soon as I got to church on Sun, I was informed by the Executive secretary that the bishop wanted to meet with me right after church. I gulped and told Nick I felt sick. He said, "You'll be fine." A few minutes later I went back to him ... "It's about the pageant, right?" "Right." "Now I feel really sick." "You'll be fine." A couple minutes and I was back, "Is it just me, or others?" He named two other names--including last years director. "I really feel sick." "You'll be fine."
Fortunately, it was time for church to start. I worried through Sac Mtg. I worried through SS. I worried through RS. I REALLY felt sick. As I waited in the foyer, carefully talking to someone else entirely, Nick came by and said, 'You'll be fine." I was beginning to believe him. Until I walked into the bishop's office with the others. Last years director started to launch right in as to take control of the meeting--Nick woudn't let her. Then the bishop wouldn't let her say a word. He said his piece. He mentioned a need for asking people with a little more tact--and she launched into two minutes of vitriol against me before anyone could take a breath. The other person sat in the corner looking like he was pretending not to be there! [and probably wished he weren't!] I sat stiff and straight. [And I didn't cry!} Bishop recovered quickly from his shock never having heard her attack me like that before [I had] and stopped her. Completely. He pointed out how great a thing the Psgeant was last year, but that he could and would quash it NOW if need be. She quieted down as he proceeded to outline the way things would work this year. I am director. She is essentially the artistic director. Any major changes must go through the executive producer. We don't even have to speak to each other. I left, feeling sick. I had told the bishop on many occasions thatI did not have to direct--I would bow out if needed. He says I am to direct, and after the meeting basically told me that he wanted me to do things my way. Whew. Later that afternoon, I rceived a phone call from her apologizing for jumping on me that way. I accepted her apology, but I feel just like last fall when she did basically the same thing to me for keeping things moving when she was out sick. So now I really know--how she feels, and that I am a friend only so far as she can use me. Oh well. The pageant is worth it on so many levels. This is my last public complaint. Now to go forward. With a smile :)
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Monday, March 19, 2007
Genealogy Update
As you all know, I am really into working in genealogy/family history. I've been a FH consultant on ward or stake level almost for 15 straight years--despite having moved all over the country.
Many times a person will say they want to participate in this great work, but just don't know what they could do with a houseful of young children.
The answer is here. The Church has a new FamilySearch Indexing Program going on. All those millions of records on the microfilms and microfiche stored in the granite vaults are in process of being digitalized. Volunteers are doing the indexing. You can choose the project you prefer, as many are ongoing. All it takes is access to a computer. You can go to LDS.org to volunteer, or go through your own stake. You do a short tutorial and that's it...you can do as much or as little as you desire. My personal goal is to do one batch per day. It takes approxamately 1/2 hour! Now, I know that in the height of our pageant season I will not be able to keep up. That's OK. When I'm gone to Lura's, I can work from her computer, or just not do it while I'm gone. I don't even have to do the whole batch at one sitting. For example, I was working on a batch tonight and it was time for 24, so downstairs to watch TV I went. I continued later, came upon a Lura, and had to call my Lura to tell her! [We don't run accross her name every day--I can list each time on one hand!] Then I started on blogs, and will finish that batch in the morning [Well, it was my second today!]
Eventually, all the stuff that we normally order from Salt Lake will be available FREE online. What an amazing project to be part of! I urge everyone who can, to volunteer. You download a batch: usually 50 names at a time. You have 7 days to complete the batch. If you can't get it all done, at the 7 day point you can submit what you have been able to do, and the batch will then be given to another person to complete. This is as low pressure volunteering as it gets. Please help in this historic work of eternal consequence :) Did I mention that one need not be LDS to participate? I know, for example, that one of the projects currently in progress is the Ohio tax records from the beginning--and the volunteers are coming from the Ohio Historical Society.
Check it out!
Many times a person will say they want to participate in this great work, but just don't know what they could do with a houseful of young children.
The answer is here. The Church has a new FamilySearch Indexing Program going on. All those millions of records on the microfilms and microfiche stored in the granite vaults are in process of being digitalized. Volunteers are doing the indexing. You can choose the project you prefer, as many are ongoing. All it takes is access to a computer. You can go to LDS.org to volunteer, or go through your own stake. You do a short tutorial and that's it...you can do as much or as little as you desire. My personal goal is to do one batch per day. It takes approxamately 1/2 hour! Now, I know that in the height of our pageant season I will not be able to keep up. That's OK. When I'm gone to Lura's, I can work from her computer, or just not do it while I'm gone. I don't even have to do the whole batch at one sitting. For example, I was working on a batch tonight and it was time for 24, so downstairs to watch TV I went. I continued later, came upon a Lura, and had to call my Lura to tell her! [We don't run accross her name every day--I can list each time on one hand!] Then I started on blogs, and will finish that batch in the morning [Well, it was my second today!]
Eventually, all the stuff that we normally order from Salt Lake will be available FREE online. What an amazing project to be part of! I urge everyone who can, to volunteer. You download a batch: usually 50 names at a time. You have 7 days to complete the batch. If you can't get it all done, at the 7 day point you can submit what you have been able to do, and the batch will then be given to another person to complete. This is as low pressure volunteering as it gets. Please help in this historic work of eternal consequence :) Did I mention that one need not be LDS to participate? I know, for example, that one of the projects currently in progress is the Ohio tax records from the beginning--and the volunteers are coming from the Ohio Historical Society.
Check it out!
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Real Age Quiz
I received a "Real Age Quiz" to take from my husband, So I did it. I already knew this, but it is really lousy staring you back in the face. Here's the address: http://www.realage.com/reg/regassess.aspx?mod=LONGFORM&cbr=NEXS1_P I don't know how to make a link, so thisis the best I can do. After all, who could expect more at my age:72.7! But I'm only 54.6! And feeling better than I have in years! Improvement did not count in this quiz. But they do provide a whole plan to get you where you should be. I think I was better off not knowing. But that might be just me. I'm not going to worry about it. After all, I've survived more than most already--and I'm not planning on giving up the ghost ant time soon. So...guess I'll just have to live to be over a hundred in their terms. Hah!
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Doing What Is Right?
I received a letter yesterday from an ex-home teacher [jr companion] who is near to the end of his Mission in Puerto Rico. I am ashamed that I fell off regular letters some time ago. And he apoligized for not writing often! I'm the one who should be ashamed. And I do.
Anyway, he asked me if I'd found any theatrical pursuits to involve in since the move here [heh, heh, heh...didn't know what he was asking, did he?] It is one of our areas of common interest.
But tonight I find myself so depressed again. I feel like I really messed up. There has been some misunderstandings I think...
First I must digress. Many years ago now, one of my closest friends at that time and place dropped by as we were sitting down to dinner. She was returning a book I had loaned to her, but inside she had included a letter to me. The letter was not written in a lucid time for her, she was putting all the anger at her mother on me [wasn't I lucky] I understood then, and I understand now, that it wasn't really her writing to me...but I've always held in my heart some of what she said, and wondered if some of what she said was true. I hope not. I try not. But was it? And more importantly, is it?
Fast forward to last winter. The Pageant director was ill, and for a couple days could not be there as we madly tried to finish costumes and sets. Initially everyone kept asking me what to do next, or what to do about [fill in the blank]. My answer was "You know what to do. You have a brain. You tell me what you need--remember, I'm the one here who doesn't sew." And after a fairly short while, the work moved forward at a furious pace with people making their own decisions and not going to one person for every little thing. The director came in for a short while to check on our progress the second day. She yelled at me for trying to take over etc. etc. etc. I was extremely depressed as I went home, wondering both at her vitriol, and at how much was true, albeit unconciously, but true nontheless
This year I am supposed to direct. I told our new bishop at our meeting that Iwould talk to the old director. Our first concern was to not hurt her feelings. It din't work. I find myself wondering again at her accusations from last year.
This production was her concept. Her script. It could never have been done without her. But it could also never have been done without me. Last year I served as her slave--not my title, but the reality. I not only cannot, but my family nor my bishop, will not allow the same situation again.
So I am left wondering what is right? Did I push myself in? Did I try to take over from her? Obviously that is become the end result. I feel depressed, I don't know what to repent of, but am left feeling called to repentence. The situation is a bit different, but I feel the same as I felt last year and years ago from the letter. Is it only me? Or do other people have situations that come up from time to time? I really just want to do the right thing. Always. Why is it so hard when dealing with other people?
Anyway, he asked me if I'd found any theatrical pursuits to involve in since the move here [heh, heh, heh...didn't know what he was asking, did he?] It is one of our areas of common interest.
But tonight I find myself so depressed again. I feel like I really messed up. There has been some misunderstandings I think...
First I must digress. Many years ago now, one of my closest friends at that time and place dropped by as we were sitting down to dinner. She was returning a book I had loaned to her, but inside she had included a letter to me. The letter was not written in a lucid time for her, she was putting all the anger at her mother on me [wasn't I lucky] I understood then, and I understand now, that it wasn't really her writing to me...but I've always held in my heart some of what she said, and wondered if some of what she said was true. I hope not. I try not. But was it? And more importantly, is it?
Fast forward to last winter. The Pageant director was ill, and for a couple days could not be there as we madly tried to finish costumes and sets. Initially everyone kept asking me what to do next, or what to do about [fill in the blank]. My answer was "You know what to do. You have a brain. You tell me what you need--remember, I'm the one here who doesn't sew." And after a fairly short while, the work moved forward at a furious pace with people making their own decisions and not going to one person for every little thing. The director came in for a short while to check on our progress the second day. She yelled at me for trying to take over etc. etc. etc. I was extremely depressed as I went home, wondering both at her vitriol, and at how much was true, albeit unconciously, but true nontheless
This year I am supposed to direct. I told our new bishop at our meeting that Iwould talk to the old director. Our first concern was to not hurt her feelings. It din't work. I find myself wondering again at her accusations from last year.
This production was her concept. Her script. It could never have been done without her. But it could also never have been done without me. Last year I served as her slave--not my title, but the reality. I not only cannot, but my family nor my bishop, will not allow the same situation again.
So I am left wondering what is right? Did I push myself in? Did I try to take over from her? Obviously that is become the end result. I feel depressed, I don't know what to repent of, but am left feeling called to repentence. The situation is a bit different, but I feel the same as I felt last year and years ago from the letter. Is it only me? Or do other people have situations that come up from time to time? I really just want to do the right thing. Always. Why is it so hard when dealing with other people?
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Computer Generation
I'm not part of it even tho friends my age think it is wonderful what I can do on the computer [boy, have I got them fooled!] In the past month I've
1. had to get rid of my Flickr acct [and have yet to resign up] because it was unsavable. So said their support person.
2. had my PAF freeze in such a tangled mess that even with the support guys working on it by remote access, it took two weeks to fix.
3. had both printers decide everything should be printed like an envelope unless specifically fixed each and every time we print--actually, we think my husband did that one--I hope I've gotten that corrected now, but who knows? I'm afraid to test it!
4. the top CD drive on our computer doesn't like me anymore. It won't accept my CD. I finally [after a week or so] figured out to put my CD in the second one down. It works! Whew!
5. My print Shop unloaded itself somehow??? I reloaded it all by myself :)
6. Then it started having occasional problems, and it is becoming more frequent. I'm ready to take it off and start over [except I don't know how]
7. I can not get print shop to give me a short cut icon on the desk top. Keith tried, and failed, too. And he can always do that!
There were a couple more, but I forget. I know--whine, whine, whine.
At least I'm making a list so I can begin to sort thru it all...
And I will be with Lura soon, and she is patient and will help me with Flickr etc. anything that can be done from her house.
And Vinnie will be out here this summer after all, and he will help me with what's left after Erica, home on spring break helps me out. [fixes me up]
I may not be so great with computers, but my children, bless everyone of them, are.
[Sariah don't feel left out--you did all you could for me last time with Flickr--and I just drove you crazy! And Richard--you'll be around awhile, so you get to do mop up :)
1. had to get rid of my Flickr acct [and have yet to resign up] because it was unsavable. So said their support person.
2. had my PAF freeze in such a tangled mess that even with the support guys working on it by remote access, it took two weeks to fix.
3. had both printers decide everything should be printed like an envelope unless specifically fixed each and every time we print--actually, we think my husband did that one--I hope I've gotten that corrected now, but who knows? I'm afraid to test it!
4. the top CD drive on our computer doesn't like me anymore. It won't accept my CD. I finally [after a week or so] figured out to put my CD in the second one down. It works! Whew!
5. My print Shop unloaded itself somehow??? I reloaded it all by myself :)
6. Then it started having occasional problems, and it is becoming more frequent. I'm ready to take it off and start over [except I don't know how]
7. I can not get print shop to give me a short cut icon on the desk top. Keith tried, and failed, too. And he can always do that!
There were a couple more, but I forget. I know--whine, whine, whine.
At least I'm making a list so I can begin to sort thru it all...
And I will be with Lura soon, and she is patient and will help me with Flickr etc. anything that can be done from her house.
And Vinnie will be out here this summer after all, and he will help me with what's left after Erica, home on spring break helps me out. [fixes me up]
I may not be so great with computers, but my children, bless everyone of them, are.
[Sariah don't feel left out--you did all you could for me last time with Flickr--and I just drove you crazy! And Richard--you'll be around awhile, so you get to do mop up :)
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